for someone who pretends to have no emotions whatsoever im really sensitive
Well, first of all, in canon, I ship Johnlock platonically. It’s only in fanon that I ship them romantically and sexually. The pleasure I get from the programme is intellectual pleasure - the pleasure of watching intelligent people involved in intellectual challenges - and the pleasure of watching a very potent and complementary friendship. That friendship is a very unusual and complex and strong one, and that makes me interested in how it would translate into other types of relationship, i.e. a romantic and sexual one, and so I indulge in that pleasure in fandom, as something separate from the programme itself. As such, I don’t feel that my ship is being ‘intruded on’ in the sense that it could have been romantically and sexually canon and now won’t be, because that’s not what I want out of the programme to begin with (in fact, I actively do not want it, because I read Sherlock as aromantic, and he is therefore a good [and very rare] representative of my orientation for me, which is something I value).
I’m also a huge lover of the books, so from one perspective, I’m glad she’s being included because obviously she existed in the original material. However, she’s one of my least favourite characters in the books themselves, because she’s very bland, very subjectively and feebly characterised, and essentially acts as a plot point - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle wanted to discontinue the Sherlock Holmes narrative after The Sign of Four, and so needed a reason for Holmes and Watson to go their separate ways, and that reason was Watson marrying.
That said, this, in a way, makes me more excited for her introduction into the BBC canon. She’s essentially a blank canvas with which the writers can do whatever they choose, and I’m in hopes that they’ll make her far more interesting than she was in the books. Sherlock is a pretty small ensemble, so I’m looking forward to more (hopefully interesting and enjoyable) characters joining its ranks.
Of course, part of me is upset, too, because Sherlock is my favourite character in the programme. He’s the character I relate to the most, and I’m more attached to him than any of the others, and obviously, the introduction of Mary is going to cause some emotional tumult for him. He’s expecting to return to find things as they were, and he’s going to find that John has changed and moved on and that he isn’t the single most important person in his life anymore, and that’s going to be very upsetting for him. Even in the canon, he’s upset: ‘The good Watson had at that time deserted me for a wife, the only selfish action which I can recall in our association. I was alone.’
However, I think that what will be interesting is seeing Sherlock develop as a character as a result. In the canon, when Holmes returned, Watson fainted and then got over it pretty much immediately. BBC John is a much stronger character - Watson essentially exists primarily as a narrative device in the canon, and while he sometimes appears more as an actual character, his characterisation is often much weaker than it is in the BBC canon - and I’m looking forward to him putting Sherlock in his place and saying ‘Actually, what you did was incredibly hurtful, how dare you expect me to sit around waiting for the return of a dead man?’ I’m looking forward to seeing them both evolve as characters, actually, and I think Mary will act as a really important and interesting catalyst for that.
Finally, John was hurt very badly. He returned from Afghanistan probably with PTSD, met this insane man with whom he became best friends, learnt to trust again through him, and then watched that man kill himself without explanation. That would be traumatic for anyone, and particularly someone with John’s history. I’ve lost people I care a great deal about, and I can say that one thing that really helped me to recover (and I have fully recovered from my losses now) was having a network of friends around me that supported me without doting on me, that were just there to talk about stupid things with to take my mind off things, and as I recognise some of my stoic coping mechanisms in both John and Sherlock, I imagine that was exactly what John needed, to. Having someone enter his life who is able to take care of and support him and help him to move on would have been really important for him, and John’s been through so much that I can never resent anything that makes him happy, as Mary undoubtedly does.
I've seen you grow up so much. You're not that little goofy kid I found in the iceberg anymore.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm really proud of you.❞